The Toleration of She-Male💔

Finally my wait is over, I am out now to put my tiny tot feet on the terra firma of my parents small world and I have already realized in 9 months that my parent’s world revolves only and only around me. Mom you know me the best, and I think I too. I am the apple of your eyes still I know you are also concerned that I am a baby girl. When I was inside you attached to the umbilical cord we were connected so much that by the end of 9 months I understood your fears of being a girl. But see I am out to see what this life has to offer me.

I giggle when Dad holds me or helps me to burp, I smile when Mrs Sharma call me princess , I give out a toothless laugh when Ankita tickles me and the best part of my day is when you sing my favorite lullaby for me to make me sleep. I am happy Mom! But Mom I don’t think that everyone is happy with my arrival specially grandpa and grandma.The way grandma looks at me I get the feeling of being unwanted.I am just 7 months so right now I can not talk to express but mom can you tell me why are they not happy with me? Have I done something wrong or is it because I am a girl???

Wooo I can’t believe that now I am 13, which means yes I can officially call myself a teenager. Mom I used to feel ‘What is it like to be a teen?’ well now I understood this concept of “teenager” is absolutely over-hyped. This month I got my first periods and bleed for 4 days straight. It was a near death experience still I was hushed by elders to speak about it. Mom I don’t know but am I a big girl now, I am slowly having different changes in my body. I don’t know why but some boys follow me from school to home and pass vulgar comments about my body. It feels weird Mom very weird and you know what mom many girls of my class are suffering through this. I don’t feel safe in school anymore and I don’t know what I can do about it.

Guess what I am 18 today, which means mom can I call myself an adult now? I know you are concerned and worried about me all the time and I often used to get annoyed but now I understand the gravity of your concern. The truth is when I say that I can come back home safely myself at 8 pm, when I say it’s okay to make more male friends than female, when I say it’s absolutely fine if I wear short and revealing cloths, every single thing which I argue about nowadays is actually worthless because I am not myself sure that I will be safe today, tomorrow or in future. Every day when I get news about some girl getting raped or harassed, mom I fear, I fear that I should not be the next one in the news tomorrow.

Mom I thought I married my dream man that day, but who knew that my Mr.Right would be so heinous and unbearable for me. I got married to this so called gentlemen when I was 27 years old and from the very first night to this date I get harassed,abused and even raped in the middle of the night. Whenever I do anything against his wishes, he gets too violent and beats me. Everybody in the society knows that there is something called marital rape and domestic violence, people debate about it a lot but when it comes to the time of support you will not see people standing beside you. When I try to discuss these problems which are like slow poison in my life people say I am married, I should listen to my husband’s orders as it’s a duty of a good wife to make her husband sexually and mentally satisfied so basically the concept of marital rape does not exist in their eyes. Mom, I am suffering through this mental, physical and emotional torture daily and I feel sorry for myself that I am not that brave to help myself, I need to go through this because I don’t want my son to know that his father is a big monster who is slowly killing his mom.

Mom you are no more with me now and I miss you a lot. Finally, at the age of 68 laying on my deathbed, I am recalling and imaging what a girl born in my country has to go through right from the time she is born to the time she is dead. It is obviously not an encouraging scene right now for female of our country but I still have that small flame of hope inside that one day everything will be fine mom, if not today but atleast tomorrow. People need to make an effort to make this world a better place for girls. I have realized that this country has to go a long way before we sleep, a long way before we sleep.

Hey people!!! This is something pure imaginative but related to some problems out of many that females of our country go through.

Do share and like it😄.

Thank you for Reading😄😄😄.

Published by Ava Tripathy

Let me introduce myself, I'm a human searching for reality without losing morality. My name is Ava, more precisely Ava Tripathy, the face behind the blog Avem. Humorist Indian by Nature and Sarcasm in Vein. Unpredictable and absolutely a philosophical one.

41 thoughts on “The Toleration of She-Male💔

  1. Thank you for sharing this very poignant post. This is an issue for women but in some countries more so than others. My heart feels compassion for you.

    Peace, Tamara
    Thank you so much for following me!

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  2. Dependency bring the whole problem.Financial Independence and good
    education is the only solution for a woman to lead a dignified life.

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    1. But most of the females don’t get the freedom to educate and make themselves independent…..I personally feel families should be more educated so that they allow their girls to stand on their own legs and follow their dreams….
      Thanks for your views Sir.

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      1. I know, I know.
        There are a lot of women suffering from society’s biased thoughts and they are not able to come out.

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  3. You picturised the reality. The culture or civilization of a society depends upon how women is treated. At least people must understand she is also soul, dreams…

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